9 / Sun Ahau
wild emotions are
being thrown in every which direction.
Asking questions, “how do I deal with
all this?”
so many Questions, so many, ANSWERS, few.
Although I’m only equipped to play little league,
I feel as though I’ve been
put into the ‘big league.’
Aunt Ruthie left her body a
little over a week ago, she was buried last Sunday. Her son’s , my cousins seem to be holding up well, this
is good. When my mommy left, {almost 10
years ago} it took three years for me to find my
footing.
My sister was in the hospital
for the 4th time in the past couple of months. She’s having her surgery on Monday, 10/ Crocodile
Praying for her, all the
while fear creeps in. normally fear isn’t something, or an emotion that resonates with me, yet, under these
circumstances, this is what I’m experiencing.
Dorothy {my sister} is four years my
senior, we’re it, the elders are now US.
It’s the strangest
feeling. When momma died, I felt lost,
the buffer was gone, talking with ‘D’, asking her how she was feeling, telling
her how I felt without momma, and her being the buffer, ‘D’ felt the same.
With out having a personal
experience, these words are pretty meaningless.
Even with all the exterior
stuff going on, I’m grateful that I wake up each morning, I’ve got my health. Without one’s health, well, what is there?
One could have all the wealth
in the world, so? You can afford the
finest medical, yet, where is the joy of life?
Three days before my daddy
left his body, we were talking about living life,
He said, {in his Polish
accent} “When I
was a young man, I could eat anything I wanted, but I was poor, now, I’m a
wealthy man, I can’t eat what I want because I’m sick, what is life all about?”
So, I ask you, “what is life all
about?” WHAT IS YOUR LIFE ALL ABOUT?
Do you find yourself
complaining more than you give thanks.
Are you holding onto upsets
from your past?
Who’s carrying all that
baggage?
When you release it, you’ll
feel 100 lbs lighter. Give it a go, when you let go of all that ‘stuff’,
knowing that God give you much more than you can handle, being you’re not
supposed to handle any of it, give it over, relax, enjoy, fill your life with
as much joy as possible.
Put all the rest in a nice
package, dig a hole, give it a proper burial, send it off to God, truly, this
is the grandest gift you give to yourself, then it pours over onto all those
around you.
Remember,
L O V E I
S T H E A N S W E R,
No matter the question.
Fear . . . . . . . . . . . what goes on in your mind? ? ?
It is in your mind you
know. Fear is the ‘dialog’ that
continues to inundate your thinking, taking over where ‘Love’ really wants to
reside, yet, for what ever reason you allow that ‘mind’ of yours to
dictate ‘reasons’ why you want to remain
in that space of F E A
R you’re the only one there
that’s bringing that energy into it’s center point.
Driving home alone, it’s
dark, no moon, I have to pee, really bad, finding a gas
station, the bathroom is open, yet the station is closed. I’m on
Pacific Coast Hwy.
in
California
. Walking into
the stall, my mind starts telling me, “someone’s coming in, I can’t move, my
heart is pumping, I’m feel this dark energy coming towards me, there’s no place
to go, no place to hide.” STOP. Finding myself yelling out loud, “there’s no one
here, just me, why in the world would I allow that to over take knowing that
I’m being protected, watched over.” By
the time I got back in my car, shaking my head, looking at what I created.
Ian would say, “your
mind is not your friend.” Using
one’s intuition, creating harmony, bliss, contentment, joy, .
. . until it’s recognized that
what one is listening to, you won’t change it. When you hear the negative energy, the
negative voices that yell in your ear, you can’t change it.
“Oh my god, the car payment
is due, I don’t have the money, I can’t pay my rent,
where is the gas money coming from?”
looking at the words that are being said, listening to the
words that others say, what are they bringing into their lives? Exactly what they asked
for.
NOT ENOUGH
I remember sitting in the
reading circle when I was around 6 years old,
Saying over and over in my
head, “don’t pick me, don’t pick me,”
GUESS WHAT! The teacher picked me to read.
ASK FOR WHAT YOU WANT, NOT WHAT YOU
DON’T WANT.
When there’s a dramatic incident that occurs, it’s a
wake up call.
W A K E U
P A R E Y O U L I S T E N I N G ?
Ian is / was the
most brilliant man I’ve ever known, his talents went way beyond his ability to
capture your attention while presenting his point of view about the Maya, their
cosmology, the history that brought about clarity for people all over the
world. He sculpted miniatures with such
detail, the passion he put into his pieces are felt to the touch.
Poetry was added to pieces he sculpted. While he recited
what he had written, I would have to remind myself to breath. He was a true
wizard.
There’s so much of
his work I will be sharing with you, soon as I create the funds to get back to
BC, {where Ian and I were living} all his mold are there, there waiting for me,
Fred will be using the molds so that his work will continue to a part of ‘our’
lives. Right now the only piece
available is the Galactic Butterfly. For those who are wearing one, I’m
grateful, Ian’s thrilled, the power, energy that it brings is amazing. The Maya believe that ‘when The Butterfly
returns, there will be peace on earth.’
You are the light that shines through out the world,
bringing your energy where ever you go. Knowing that you’ve
chosen this time to be a guide for all whom are awake to experience this
evolution into our
New World
.
We Are The Ones We’ve Been Waiting For.
Please check out Fred's latest creation.
He was a good friend of Ian's and is a fine artist / jeweler.
